Wednesday, March 31, 2004

my precious bag

hi blog.. here once again, to talk abt my day. at least its a form of retrospection, which allows me to make constructive changes to my life. which i guess i need alot to, cos no man is perfect!

well, today, i got the news that i had to go to gp clinic! ok la its not bad actually, at least it forces me to study abit. when obviously i wont go study or do anything related to gp at home right. econs was alright, i was feeling really fuped and sian, so just stoned there whilst econs lee was teaching some DRQ stuff..

which leads me to the point of why i feel sian. i think i really really seriously hate lit chua lah. she sucks to the max. i think she has a damn bad impression of me, cos of last yr!! fine lah at least im making an effort now but its thanks to lousy, stupid teachers like her who make me feel damn sian and sick of the subject she teaches. whitby on the other hand, managed to make me feel that lit was a wonderful and marvelllous subject this afternoon. anyway, lit chua is such a super put-down la she practises favouritism to the max and its like she has a kind of condescending look which she gives me. perhaps its my own inferiority complex, but i don't think so. its also in the way she speaks to me. she just sucks, she should go somewhere else and screw off from my otherwise beautiful life. she doesnt help me, i wont give her any happiness in teaching me, so she should just go somewhere else or i go study on my own. ok i admit whislt she may be quite useful at times, doeesn't mean i cant find someone else who can help me also right? and give me less agony. on the whole, lit chua sucks to the max lah!!! can't believe this is the stupid idiot who's gonna write my testimonial. goodbye to my scholarship hopes, much less the PSC scholarship. i think what she said abt starting on a clean slate doesnt really hold true. she has prejudices. too much sunshine to cover a dark, overcast sky. she sucks.

but this incident suddenly became really minor and did nothing to dampen my spirits cos of sometihng that happened during lunch. so i put my bag on a chair, as i usually do, and go to get my food. i was gone for like 15 mins. and as luck would have it, who should be sitting next to me bag (which was where i wanted to sit) but THE ONE™! wow i tell u, my bag's price rose tenfold over the period in which she sat next to it sia! but i went to sit at the soccer table when i saw her sitting next to me bag la. siah la!! after tt, ate ice cream and sat at the edge of the table cos there wasn't space, and idiots like ek kiat and ahlam were teasing me hahahahaaha... so i did something really stupid on the way back to class. i was walking wif ahlam and liangs, and i told them "eh guys guys watch this" and i proceeded to take my bag and kiss it hahahahaha and there was this stupid buncha girls in front of me that laughed when they saw it... make me feel so tremendously idiotic and stupid and dumb. BUT NVM, im a smitten guy hahahaha~!!

anyway the day went by fine. went to watch the eye2. iT WAS A stupid show la not even a horror movie.. i even fell asleep halfway thru the show.. what the hell 4 stars they talking abt man.. 4 out of 40 stars ah... reached home quite late actually...

today, i learnt that the tableteninis guys cant play and jon is injured.... but nvm.. hope the team will succeed and make it all the way... because if not, i will just die lah.... all those stuff i did all in vain.. all the time in vain.. and since everyone has put in their 100% i think they deserve it la... hope jon recovers soon so that he can come and help the team..

ok i think i got nothing to say already.. think i shall go sleeep... quite tired also. ya uim very tired. gdnite all..... sweet dreams ya and take care man.....

mervyn at 3/31/2004 05:08:00 PM

Tuesday, March 30, 2004

don't leave me this way

hihi blog.. finally here! didnt update ytd cos i was too tired to update, and i was studying for my stupid lit ct, whch was finally over and done with, TODAY.

well, ytd, orientaiton 2, was stupid. didnt talk to my o1 og, cos of some reasons, which may seem not obvious, but being lit student me, i infer here and infer there, create a few conspiracy theories here and there, sense the underlying mood, and so there. but actually i feel that one should not be judged by his private life, which others only know part of the facts. maybe they dun even know the facts. but anyway im making generalisations here, not all of them are so bad. ha.

i was also pissed with the stpid lousy idiotic games... and i was puit in charge of this damn disgusting game that involved ppl sucking water and transferring it to another receptacle, and that inevitably resulted in saliva and water and it was so disgusting i told them to wash it themselves. so unhygenic. but i slacked most of the time, cos the stupid brian came to nj to sell his stupid funfair tickets. but he failed, so he came to crash the orientation. hahaa he is a stupid fool man!!!

anyway i had a splitting headache, i was so tired and burnt out due to my complete lack of sleep for the past week, n i had to deal with these uninterested year 1s, and so the day kinda really sucked for me. but i saw some cute girls.. haahha.. and brian says my tastes sucks. cos he saw the one, and he says it really really sucks. just as anthony said. why they always say my taste sucks? maybe i just have unique and exquisite taste right? i guess so. i have an eye for talent, something which laymen cannot appreciate. like a fine wine, u need a connoseiur to experience it. haha..

anyway i like my new red specs. they r like kinda cool lah, and when i wear them, its like my world is framed in the red. and u can see thru the red plastic, so it makes the stuff u see really nice. like la vie en rose. looking at life thru rose-coloured glasses. but if that's the case, then life shud be perfect and i shud be gd frens wif the one, but im not! hahaha ok! but still, i am liking the view from my new specs. they look kinda funky too. haha. dun u all think they look really funky?

anyway today, i arrived in sch and strolled into the mob when they were having their temp taking exercise, and lied to my beloved CT that i had already taken my temp when i had just walked into the queue just like that. but on my way to sch i was sleeping in my mum's car when the stupid car at the back bumped into the bumper and woke me up with a jolt la, but there was like just a minor scratch which isnt really a scratch la can be wiped off with a little effort kinda thing... but my mum said aiya just pay $100 la and de guy paid hahaha easy money.. tough luck on the guy man.. but he deserves it lah for being so kancheong.. jam jam la why wanna move in jam!

anyway i was a desolate soul filled with a great sense of apathy in sch today. i couldnt be bothered with the world i guess. i saw the one, and she made way for me lah!! must be avoiding me! so sad hahahaha... but anyway i was like super sianned in sch today, cos i lack of slp. but i guess aiya this will heal itself over the weekend.

math chua's lesson passed by uneventfully cos i told her i wanted to study. didnt do my tutorial anyway, feel a little sian. the rain didnt do much to help, and the thunder and lightning created such a dire state in me that i felt like taking the batteries from the sky so that there wont be any more lightning...

i was dumb during econs lee's lesson and said something tt i read frm the economist and he asks me to present it to the class tmr.............. help............. me...... i dunno wad to say also..............................................................................
ok im just damn sleepy.

anyway erm i dun have much to say also. but i still think love is a stupid feeling. for the amusement of puppies. anyway i dun think anyone i know knows what love is. for we are all just infatuated young souls, looking for a quick fix. and we shall get that quick fix. soon. or soon enough at least. ha. ok im just talkng cock. cos i'm sleepy.. my eyes are tired.... kk think ill end here...... yah

nothing much to say anymore.. kk gdnite.. oh ya, and cheer up yiling... this entry is dedicated to you...cos i said so in class!! ok? must be like me lah, don't care so much abt the little stuff.. just be happy with whatever comes yr way.. and that's the best way out of everything... k.. take care everyone... see y`all soon.... goodnight and sweet drms! (esp. liangfa hahahahahahahahaha)

mervyn at 3/30/2004 05:09:00 PM

don't leave me this way

hihi blog.. finally here! didnt update ytd cos i was too tired to update, and i was studying for my stupid lit ct, whch was finally over and done with, TODAY.

well, ytd, orientaiton 2, was stupid. didnt talk to my o1 og, cos of some reasons, which may seem not obvious, but being lit student me, i infer here and infer there, create a few conspiracy theories here and there, sense the underlying mood, and so there. but actually i feel that one should not be judged by his private life, which others only know part of the facts. maybe they dun even know the facts. but anyway im making generalisations here, not all of them are so bad. ha.

i was also pissed with the stpid lousy idiotic games... and i was puit in charge of this damn disgusting game that involved ppl sucking water and transferring it to another receptacle, and that inevitably resulted in saliva and water and it was so disgusting i told them to wash it themselves. so unhygenic. but i slacked most of the time, cos the stupid brian came to nj to sell his stupid funfair tickets. but he failed, so he came to crash the orientation. hahaa he is a stupid fool man!!!

anyway i had a splitting headache, i was so tired and burnt out due to my complete lack of sleep for the past week, n i had to deal with these uninterested year 1s, and so the day kinda really sucked for me. but i saw some cute girls.. haahha.. and brian says my tastes sucks. cos he saw the one, and he says it really really sucks. just as anthony said. why they always say my taste sucks? maybe i just have unique and exquisite taste right? i guess so. i have an eye for talent, something which laymen cannot appreciate. like a fine wine, u need a connoseiur to experience it. haha..

anyway i like my new red specs. they r like kinda cool lah, and when i wear them, its like my world is framed in the red. and u can see thru the red plastic, so it makes the stuff u see really nice. like la vie en rose. looking at life thru rose-coloured glasses. but if that's the case, then life shud be perfect and i shud be gd frens wif the one, but im not! hahaha ok! but still, i am liking the view from my new specs. they look kinda funky too. haha. dun u all think they look really funky?

anyway today, i arrived in sch and strolled into the mob when they were having their temp taking exercise, and lied to my beloved CT that i had already taken my temp when i had just walked into the queue just like that. but on my way to sch i was sleeping in my mum's car when the stupid car at the back bumped into the bumper and woke me up with a jolt la, but there was like just a minor scratch which isnt really a scratch la can be wiped off with a little effort kinda thing... but my mum said aiya just pay $100 la and de guy paid hahaha easy money.. tough luck on the guy man.. but he deserves it lah for being so kancheong.. jam jam la why wanna move in jam!

anyway i was a desolate soul filled with a great sense of apathy in sch today. i couldnt be bothered with the world i guess. i saw the one, and she made way for me lah!! must be avoiding me! so sad hahahaha... but anyway i was like super sianned in sch today, cos i lack of slp. but i guess aiya this will heal itself over the weekend.

mervyn at 3/30/2004 05:09:00 PM

Sunday, March 28, 2004

the day the world went berserk and sychronised.

hi bloggo! i'm finally..... BACK from malacca!!! i certainly missed home... nothing beats home.... sweet...... home!! however, during the malacca trip, for some odd reason or other, my roommate was delwy and ms ho! she slept in the other room but one room has 2 rooms u see... that was some strange stuff. but nvm tho.

the trip was alright tho, there really wasnt nothing much going on `cept quite alot of mental sessions... but most of the time we were trying to train our concentration on keeping awake. the climax of the trip was probably our "pool training" tho... hahaha... that was some crazy game.. but super fun.. hahaha.. its like everyone just snatching for this beach ball which started out kinda captains ball style and turned into some water rugby with ppl trying to grab the ball and everyone just crowding arnd it and trying to pull it away and ppl pulling each other's shorts and all and jumping onto the crowd... hard to describe.. must see to believe.. but it was damn fun lah!! the food sucks too, had nothing else to eat `cept those fast food cos they didnt bring us to the malacca hawker centres, which are damn nice to eat. that sucked.. bought some really cheap stuff too.. on the last day... aiya
i think i shudnt write abt the trip. haha.

anyway my mind the last few days have been rather blank.. but i managed to get my air trainer 1s today! infinitely happy lah!!! they're damn nice shoes lah. shoudl wear them tmr. which reminds me, orientation tmr, which is onyl one day. probably wont be as fun as o1. and my og has broken up, they've formed cliques amongst themselves, some ppl left, there's some extremists radical factions in there, some ppl in there are fuped.. thanx to my short interlude.. which wasnt really my faul.t.. but i blame no one. its their class lah! well, there's some reshuffling going on and let's just hope.... YOU KNOW! like. The One™ is reshuffled to my class,..... kinda thing! hahahahaa!!!! well, that's the things which dreams are made of.

okokok i guess im going off to read my papers. gdnite all ya ppl.. byebye.. really really tired. like a dynamite that has been set off at two ends. will die soon!

mervyn at 3/28/2004 05:19:00 PM

Thursday, March 25, 2004

i don't know how you do what you do [ ]

hihi im back once again, for my regular blogging. i think i'm addicted to this. hahahaa.... but anyway im going to sleep soon. i have finished my halfway studying and i cant be bothered wif john and william anymore. let them flip in their graves whilst i blatantly commit literary blasphemy!

u know i think blogging shud be a subject. then ppl can assess our blogs and give us marks. its much more practical than say..... physics! or... literature. it lets u get in touch with ur inner self, gives u room for retrospection, and lots more!! but i am not MOE so yah lor.

found out that mr heng is really going with us for the malaysia trip!! so fun!! hahaa.. can talk cock wif him.. he is really the king of cock man.. whole life talk cock only hahahahaa... but i have gripes abt the stupid trip, but i'm not saying them here.

sigh.. as i was in the bath just now.. (yea once agian) i thought abt stuff... and i realised that women and men are inherently different... men make a physical connection wif women first, then go and make the emotional connect, whilst women connect wif men on an emotional level first before they r physically attracted to guys(think i read this somewhere). tts why there r more lesbians than gays... cos women dun really mind wad u r as long as u can connect wif them emotionally....... therefore... this brings hope to millions and millions of ppl all arnd the world, including me!!! it means that u can be a totally ugly idiot... and get some pretty girls!!! whilst i'm not totally ugly..... ahhahaha.. and she may not be so pretty............ perhaps we can make that CONNECTION!!! ahahahaha okokok im talking cock i too shy to even look at her face to face what connection am i talking abt man!!!!! i am a total idiiot~!!!!!!!

anyway i dun really have much to say just wanted to post something to prevent my eye from shocking ppl, its really quite scary to have an eye in the middle of the monitor. i experienced it just now.

ok anyway see everyone of u i guess i wont be here til.. sunday... til then.. seeya everyone.. stay funky, peace to y`all.. and pray pray pray pray realllllly really hard everyday religously without fail that one day.... just one day... the one will come talk to me. ok? hahahahaa kkk byebyeebye guys... take care, gdnite..... hope to see y`all soon!

mervyn at 3/25/2004 05:50:00 PM

this is fate.

hi blog.... so tired.. glad that its finally thursday and i have made it thru so far... well today was history paper, and hardworking me studied til 4 last night... when i had a paper at 8! and i had to wake up at 6! so i only had two hours of sleep.... thus resulting in....

so poor thing right.. sigh.... ok la the truth was that im so lazy tt i have to do it at the last minute and i suck ok. but at least i bothered studying!!! so that's good righT?!!
anyway this is my first time trying to post pictures. ha.

math was kinda. doable la. just tt i am such an idiot. but nvm. history is also veyr doable but i wrote til my hands were like dying lah... try writing like 10 sheets of paper (both sides) in 3 hours... and u will notice that ur fingers will die.. just like mine.. the skin on the place where u rest ur pen is rough now... my poor hands... now i have to apply my hand and nail lotion... to keep it smooth.. must go for manicure when im done... hahahaaha.... but no rest for me, after tmr, which is still not the end of my papers but im going to malacca wif the soccer team... and still have to come back on monday to take my exam... poor me.. (collective sigh once again pls?) sigh.... i must take leave from sch soon to rest my shattered soul and body (considering i just came back from the march hols 4 days ago)

anyway today after the exam i had to wait til like 12 something for the rain to stop and so that i could walk out the main gate... well, as luck, and fate would have it, as i was walking out, WHO should i encounter, but none other than........ -drumroll- ..... than......... no prizes for guessing, THE ONE!!!!! wow, we r like super fated la. and cos i think there was a whole class of ppl there, or at least, 8 ppl, the walkway was rather packed.. when i walked pass.. and as fate would have it, i was on the side she was on!!!! try to picture the pathway outside rgps frm nj, wif 3 ppl walking alongside each other. THAT'S HOW CLOSE I WAS!! my god, it was like 5cm?!? FIVE!!! like |------this close-------| (actual size) wah lau, but me, being me, just looked down on the ground and didnt even look at her, much less make eye contact, or any form of contact (no cheeky thoughts here... HEH HEH)
oh and this morning, after assembly (thank god i went, didnt know whether to go for assembly or not) as i was walking up to class, once again, as luck and fate would have it, GUESS WHO WAS WALKING BEHIND ME, yes yes yes i know that's enough, but it was... obviously.... THE ONE!!! taaaa daaaa!! wah lau eh so lucky man. sigh..... if only every day was like that, i would be a happy, contented fella, and my standard of living would be so so so so so so so so high, even tho i got no money. hahaha.... ok i sound like an idiot i know, so infatuated, so idiotic, so deranged, crazy, over this person... whom i know close to nothing about. BUT THAT'S FATE! IT IS LIKE THAT! it is written in the stars!!!!! hahahahahaahahahahahahahahahahahahaaa

ok im going to watch fear factor now. and i havent studied my m4m nor john donne. but i will do it later! oh ya i was very proud last night whilst watching the inter sch science challenge on tv. ya its damn lame show, but i was very happy seeing how dunman high thrashed all the rest hands down.. schs like RV, sngs were all like fighting for the answers.. and in the end dunman was highest with 8 points and RV was like 1 pt and SN was so lucky to qualify with 3 pts... hahaha... dunman high muggers science damn gd one dun play play...
okokok im going to watch tv.. byebye!

mervyn at 3/25/2004 12:13:00 PM

Tuesday, March 23, 2004

so late.

hi everyone. it is a grand time of 4.07 now. u may wonder, what is mervyn doing at such a late hour. i was studying. Now now, wipe that smirk of yr face and stop laughing, im not doing stand-up comedy here. I SERIOUSLY WAS STUDYING! hey i said enough k! anyway, now im doing the poor good boy thing, drinking milk out of a bottle.. whilst going to sleep (collective sigh pls?) awwwwwww......... my fate is so sad..... anyway i really hope i dun fail math. gimme at least a D, and i'll be happy! (that rhymes.)

anyway, econs today. was quite good for me, because i knew how to do all the questions. the only, stupid, problem, was, that, I COULDNT SEE THE CLOCK! so i had no time. so i wrote and wrote and had no time for the rest of my quesitons. how smart. and i effectively did 1 page for a 13 mark qstn, leaving the back page blank save my conclusion. whilst i wrote 4 pages for a 12 mark qstn. how stupid of me. dear me, let's hope i do well enough to get a C and i'll be happy! (rhymes again) mr glee said i did relatively well for MCQ, which i thought i screwed up, but i got over 20, so that was good, considering my TYS was lying on my table throughout the whole holidays and i only opened it once today to look at one question and felt that it wouldnt come out so i closed the book.
u know we learn so much abt nominal and real income and all that, why not have like a nominal and real grade? like yr nominal grade (the one which is marked) divided by yr amount of studying. yah ya i know u r probably saying im bloody bullshit and all, like how to quantify the amount of studying. well, if there's a will, there's a way! like how do you quantify the weightage of yr goods, etc. etc. i believe that this real grade will be a true test of one's intelligence and potential (just like potential and actual output) and should be used. i believe that many ppl support me on this. (cos we all wanna slack) so then there will be an optimal studying rate at which ppl would study until so that their actual grade will not be divided by too large a number affecting their real grade.

ok enough crap. its too late. i need to sleep. but math is at 1400 hours.

goodbye pinky and the brain. byebye =~( sob sob sob.....

ok la goodnight everyone. i didnt see the one today, so im sad. when will i see her, again. oh but ding tian li di is re-showing on tv at 4.30, so ill rush home nowadays after sch to watch it. its a damn nice show, and it features me one love, wong lilin.
kk gdnight. enough crap.

mervyn at 3/23/2004 07:49:00 PM

goodbye pinky, goodbye brain.

mervyn at 3/23/2004 03:50:00 PM

Monday, March 22, 2004

i've been studying.

hi dear fans of my beloved blog, you may wonder, why has mervyn been absent for the past few days. well, the fact of the matter is that, mervyn has turned into a super mugger. yes he has. he has been reading lotsa stuff and doing lotsa work in the past few days. super hardworking. ok that's quite a pathetic excuse from us aliens who have abducted him.
YES! WE ARE ALIENS AND WE HAVE TAKEN HIM AWAY WITH US TO THE 11TH PLANET OF THE SOLAR SYSTEM. and we have taken him away to be our ruler! and we have named the 11th planet mervyn. in honour of him.
yes we have.

anyway today was the 1st day of 2nd intake. its quite saddening to see all the ppl in 04s27 leave, especially jokers like qingyang. haha.. those that i wanted to leave, sadly, STAYED! hahaha so mean. anyway the clone of mervyn that we aliens sent to fake those unknowing ordinary humans, unlike mervyn, the superhuman, the extraordinary ultra powered mervyn. ok so the clone went and brought the yr 1s for their subject registration and basically found most of them yr1s to be quite dumb, acting spastic, and oozing loads of attitude. ha. ok not much to say
gotta leave this body to charge at the central terminal. afterall, i'm just a clone. a decoy in human terms. and this body is kinda running out of fuel. anyone knows where i can get some more fresh virgin blood for this body?

should go look for some now. goodbye everyone. maybe mervyn would update from the mervyn planet. i figure that the internet connection there is gazillion times faster. oh sorry, there's no internet there, its a system thats beyond the comprehension of you ordinary mortals, so i shan't waste my alien breath explain to y`all.

uiehrekjnm dsfoijewnoij dshekrneuihs jkhfksanew (that's goodbye in mervynian.)

mervyn at 3/22/2004 04:59:00 PM

Friday, March 19, 2004

for myself only

this is for myself only so yr problem if u wanna read

When hearts are passing in the night, in the lonely night
Then they must hold each other tight, oh, so very tight
And take a chance that in the light, in tomorrow's light
They'll stay together so much in love.

And in the silence of the night, of the morning mist
When lips are waiting to be kissed, longing to be kissed
Where is the reason to resist and deny a kiss
That holds a promise of happiness?

Tho' yesterday still surrounds you
With a warm and precious memory
Maybe for tomorrow
We can build a new dream for you and me.

This glow we feel is something rare, something really rare
So come and say you want to share, want to really share
The beauty waiting for us there, calling for us there
That only loving can give the heart.

When life is passing in the night, in the rushing night
A man, a woman in the night, in the lonely night
Must take a chance that in the light, in tomorrow's light
They'll be together so much in love,
Together so much in love.

So tell me you're not afraid to take a chance, really take a chance,
Let your heart begin to dance, let it sing and dance
To the music of a glance, of a fleeting glance,
To the music of romance, of a new romance.
Take a chance, take a chance.

mervyn at 3/19/2004 06:18:00 PM

you don't miss your water.

hey. a little premature today aren't we. well, why, you ask. well, its a habit of mine to blog only at the very very absolute end of the day, when i've finished everything. but i'm apparently left with econs but have wondered to this terminal to blog down some stuff. did a load of math today. but still left with alot. my math is really lousy, super lousy. but i will make up for my lack of intelligence with pure, cold hard work. anyway it is all brian's fault cos im chatting with him on msn. yes, blame my inadequacies on others.

anyway this morning i woke up to a bright and sunshiney day cos of my cuz who called and so my mum brought everyone down to keppel club. where i swam a little. i thnik the scenery at the jacuzzi is very nice. a view of the sea and sentosa. which other club has that huh? ha! anyway after that went to bras basah complex. got my stuff and all. that place is quite a good place to get lost. very accidental tourist kinda thing. oh and i got the mao poster stating "there is great disorder along the road leading to great order." in chinese of course. oh damn. there's a big beetle on my curtain now. my room is disintegrating into bug's paradise!

came back to sleep, and screwed myself later in the day when i burnt a small hole in my ezlink card whilst trying something funny with it. i'm such a total idiot, a bozo if u might say. ha. god save me from myself. oh anyway survivor was so boring. wassap with the challenges? is mark burnett running out of ideas? or is he just too tired from shagging jerri too much (the only plausible explanation for jerri's presence in the game)

anyway i was considering the suggestions of love this evening(as all great[and not so great] poets, writers and every living thing on earth does). i realised that love is a totally crazy emotion. it makes ppl do stupid, crazy, incorrigible things. yes u may say i will never understand, cos im not in love. but come on, how sane is it to fall in love with a woman, marry her, divorce her, and give HALF OF YOUR BLOODY ASSETS to that bitch?! insane. what state of mind was romeo in when he stood underneath juliet's balcony, waking all the cats, dogs, royal servants, and everything? terrible. then i see so many couples out on the street. ya im jealous that the pretty girls always go with terribly ugly and screwed up guys but that's the way life is, but do they really love each otheR? i think true love exists really rarely, but i wouldn't have the audacity to say it doesnt. but i dare challenge each and everyone i know to come tell me that u all have found true love and i'll give u... TEN free shots of vodka.

anyway u know how some ppl are totally contradictory. whilst they do one thing to u, they do not expect to get it in return. ya altruistic, but what abt let's say this fella bitches and gossips abt u, but doesnt allow u to bitch abt him/her? totally illogical right. some ppl shud experience what its like to be thrust before the public eye into the spotlight in a total sudden and have yr life led for u before doing anything, but anyway ppl have done what they have done and its too late to undo what ppl have done and so i guess all we could do is sit around and mope. and cry. and wail. and do some stupid stuff i guess which could, lessen the pain, but highly unlikely. well, screw all these ppl, screw the world!

ah i think that's all that i should, or could say for now. i should study a little more, but i cant. goodnight y`all. i think i shud study my econs (it's reall easy to study for only 2 chapters) and do well for my exam. and get the pinky and the brain. ha. so there. sweet drms. tho i figure u'd probably already be having them by the time u read this. or had them. i duno. but i guess, my wishes shall be heard in yr sleep. or seen. or read.

bye.

mervyn at 3/19/2004 05:41:00 PM

Wednesday, March 17, 2004

poem

oh ya, a poem that was inspired by myself this afternoon during lunch

this is my first time writing something here
i know its not much but its a good start.
i think donne once wrote whilst drinking his beer:
"love by the spring is growne, just like your butt"

it was not published, dont fit his image
because he is a casanova
romping in bed with refined rage.
bastards, that's what most guys are

i think this sonnet is lame, you do too
coming from someone like me, it figures.
if you're unhappy about this, then sue
me, but all you'll get is autographed pictures

yes this sounds like a sonnet, does it not?
but frankly, i tricked you because its not a sonnet because the last rhyme doesnt rhyme with the rest and is a tremendously long run-on line with no punctuation of sorts and i know this is lame and if u think so just refer to the third verse paragraph.
the pictures are of me
if you don't know already.

mervyn at 3/17/2004 05:55:00 PM

un homme et une femme

hi blog. im listening to my french affair once again. it is nice. i am speaking in simple sentences. this is because it is late. therefore, my mind stops working properly. and my fingers too. they are cold. and so, they don't type what my mind tells them to.

anyway today was a totally uneventful day i basically slept til late, ate, and slept til late again. i've been having weird dreams of late. i dreamt that i was in the amazing race and that i had to go all around on my own. very funny. ahaha and then it seemed that singapore turned into a place where everything was circa 1960s and 1970s. except that it wasnt monochrome. it was in full color as one would see in normal vision. yes yes i know everyone has that preconceived notion that the 1960s and 70s would be in monochrome cos that's all we ever see, but no mine was in full vivid color. cool. and so in my amazing race i encountered cool ppl like mr lee (whom i suspect was named ali cos he was an indian fella) but all the ppl in the shop called him mr lee. so it's funny righT? but i think he was named ali lah. and he owned a mama store. and i went in and was sposed to buy some cool stuff. anyway there was this really cool calendar which was retailing there which i told him i'd buy cos i liked it alot and its price was only $3.50 but the problem of it was that it was too big so i told him i'll come back after the race. funny thing was, it was a 2004 calendar! remember how i said it was circa 1960s? haha... the price is also very 1960s innit.
then i know one of the clues on my amazing race worked out to be the barang barang shop, which is mr glee's shop. the thing abt it was that now, it was located along city hall, which in my dream, was just a street away from chinatown. and the configuration of city hall was like... amoy street, smith street. u know shophouses on both sides and a road running down the middle. yea it was like that, and so i couldnt find the shop and phoned glee. only to have him tell me "don't bother finding the shop lah i give u the next clue! alot of ppl also can't find it!" so i'm like ok and i got the next clue and basically the whole dream was really funny til i couldnt take it anymore and just woke up. i think if i slept any longer i would have won the race. hahaah. ok that's some cock. oh and i entered raffles hotel and it was the perfect epitome of colonial times. it was white, and basically it was cooly air-conditioned, built in a tremendously grand manner, and the decor was very english. and it was in starck contrast to the outside, which were shophouses and blistering heat. ha funny right my dreams. i would love to spend some time living in my dreams. they look like cool places. places that one would have their fantasies in. but pity in all these dreams, im always alone. ha i need someone to come to dreamland with me, and i know who. it is............ (drumroll pls) THE ONE! haha but dun expose who the one is lah but everyone probably knows anyway.

anyway i seriously need to buck up on my studying. little time left. didnt turn up for glee's lesson today cos of a lack of transport. my mum's car is in the workshop after that fateful day when the door refused to close and caused everyone massive trouble. and turned me into a mechanic. ok. so looks like i wont go for his lesson tmr too. which means i have to spend time at home studying. which sucks cos i know i lack discipline. at least if i go there and he teaches the stuff then i can slack. which i usually do.

caught AMI just now. i like jon peter lewis and john stevens. that jasmine trias too. very nice. and i caught lonely planet too. it was on the australian outback. i like. aahaa. i figure next time when i'm rich i shud go there too. or perhaps take a year off from my life and go there. but i know i'll never be able to do that cos its too much to take a yr off my life cos im living life in the fast lane. admire those who take a laid back approach to their life. why am i so money-minded and materialistic? why why why why why!?!?!? i dunno. it is the success story of the century. hahaha ok i'm talking cock once again. next time i'll write a book. entitled. "failure is not the mother of success. it's the father!" hahaha.... or "tips for success from a failure"
not bad righT? i could be inspirational speaker lor.. hahaha okie. nonsense

ok its not my birthday or anything but i'll just write a wishlist so all u wellwishers can give me some stuff. for fun.
1. 2 technics 1200 mkII turntables
2. a terrific soundsystem
3. good grades.
4. the one
5. a new bag.

ok that's all. ya its rather late now. i figure i shud go catch up on the most important thing in everyone's life. sleep. okie goodnight to y`all. happy thursday. and i guess that's all for now. see y`all soon. goodbye.

i hope i have brilliant dreams tonight. technicolour's optional.

mervyn at 3/17/2004 05:28:00 PM

chey.

mervyn at 3/17/2004 08:31:00 AM

Tuesday, March 16, 2004

in response to brother's post

The day when a guy falls in love with a girl is the climax of his life...and also the day his world starts to fall apart...".
brother said this and i fully agree
because it is like a drug that u'll never be able to get enough of. and its an addiction. and girls are total trouble and they totally suck. so brother has proven to be the smart one. once again. hahaha okie bruddeer thats all

mervyn at 3/16/2004 04:26:00 PM

a day of hopes. or the lack thereof.

hey blog... today was a terrible day.. slept at 5 and woke up at 7.45 to go to sch or else i will be blasted by her til no end, and of cos i hate to be blasted by her, knowing she bear grudge like nobodys business one..

anyway the lesson was very boring, very factual but nothing much. nothing that i couldn't do on my own. i prefer lessons where the teacher tells u stuff tt u will never ever find out independently. but apparently my dearest thinks otherwise, so i was bored. but i was so tired. anyway after that waited for a hell long time for socer. to start. but i left early anyway. i was so tired. u can't blame me. anyway i hate it la, now ms ho thinks i got bad attitude. but the fact of the matter is that. i think i shud not talk abt this sensitive topic here.

anyway so then had dinner at home la den my dad went off at night. quite sad la my holiday so busy when he comes back but nvm at least he did. he got quite a hectic schedule. i think in life everyone has a hectic schedule. cos ..... making money... is very hard..

actually i have alot to say. but not really in the mood to type alot. duno why. no inspiration. must slowly build up. hahahaa... just like a foreplay. so i have a sorethroat now. terrible. i'm gonna become a denise. hahaa she is quite idiotic. but nvm. birds of a feather flock together.

i wondr how girls feel when they wear skimpy bikinis. do they feel very good? do they feel sexy? what abt those who are super ugly? the girl on tv not bad la. hahaha.

ok i think i wont say much anymore i dun have much to say (sore throat) hahaha but okie. yah. tts all. goodnight..
and i wonder how the one is . hahaa aokie nonsense bye.

mervyn at 3/16/2004 04:04:00 PM

Monday, March 15, 2004

tired.

ok im very tired now not very drunk but just very very very tired. and ive still got lessons and training tmr. god help me thru this day. just came back frm chinablack. overall it was alright. not too bad.the crowd turnout was rather good, had lotsa drink coupons to keep myself a little high but overall yea..
but the security jacked us. say that it was lax. in the end was bloody tight. think the bouncer got pms. as u can see, im typing in disjointed sentences. full post-mortem out soon.
anyway ive not been updating past few days cos was quite busy; now my life's back in full swing. will study hard for the common tests.
anyway joan/ps whichever of u sees this when is ur class gathering? i see if i'm free on that day lah but i dunno. is alene or cum going? er what time is it? anyway see how next time la. a little drunk now need sleep.
bye everyone.
thanks to everyone involved for making this a success. hope that next time will have one more. k.

mervyn at 3/15/2004 08:40:00 PM

Friday, March 12, 2004

end of term

hi, this is a bumper issue. not cos i updated but cos i have alot of stuff to say today. (i think)

anyway i just came back from the WORLD PREMIERE of i la galigo. it was a brilliant show, certainly worth a few stars. since it was the world premiere, the ppl there were also glitzy glitzy high society type. haha. couldnt stand it really so i just didnt really bother much but thinking about it, the theatre contained ppl who could combine their money and rival a 3rd world countries' gdp. ha! and i was contributing $5 to that amount! ha!
anyway the show was basically somewhat dance/music narrative of the story based on the indonesian epic of sureq galigo. well the music was hauntingly sweet and magnificent. the female vocals were extremely... i dunno. haunting, yet they put u in such a reverie. the guy's voice was great, a deep baritone. there was a narrator who read verses out from the epic and there was a melodious sing-song quality to it. really bother much but thinking about it, the theatre contained ppl who could combine their money and rival a 3rd world countries' gdp. ha! and i was contributing $5 to that amount! ha!
anyway the show was basically somewhat dance/music narrative of the story based on the indonesian epic of sureq galigo. well the music was hauntingly sweet and magnificent. the female vocals were extremely... i dunno. haunting, yet they put u in such a reverie. the guy's voice was great, a deep baritone. there was a narrator who read verses out from the epic and there was a melodious sing-song quality to it.
the choreography of the dance was alright, very tribal indonesian kinda thing. very folk dance kinda thing. but it was ok. in terms of story-telling, a little too draggy, perhaps the director was trying to illustrate some current issues of the transience of life and permanance in impermanence but well, he was too draggy on those points. the lighting was simple but it did the job. overall, it was alright.
but the vocals were good.

ok so today was like wear sec sch uniform to sch day. i know not why. but i just did lah. i like my sec sch uniform. its super nice lah. and very comfortable too. and i like the color. i miss wearing it actually. ha. can i go back to sec sch pls? turn back the clock for me lah. the class wore their sec sch uni, wif the exception of bings who didnt wanna wear... showing some TRUE ATTITUDE, just like the true man he is! hahaha.. it is interesting how our class actually made an effort to bond. ok altho its a small step, but u'll never forget my good fren neil's words once u heard them. here's what my gd fren neil said. he said : "one small step for man, one giant step for mankind." yah, so pls take neil's advice into consideration (my hair is irritating me now its falling into my eyes.)
anyway u know how uniforms are supposed ot make everyone uniform (pardon the pun) and same, and forge a sense of commonality and solidarity? it is interesting how my class, 03a03, found solidarity and unity in divergence and individuality. by wearing diff. unis. ha. just an interesting thought i had in the bath again. i think i shud start a daily column called [mervyn's bath thoughts] haha.
so as i was saying, i ponned my first math lect of the yr~ i feel so naughty i wana die! omg!!! slakced in the canteen. and thats abt it. the sch day passed by really uneventfully. except for me being a mugger and photocopying close to every gd sch's econs stuff there is. and math too. too bad there's no history or lit stuff. or i'd be a super mugger. which i wanna be. but they announced half day. so i was let off at 2. so no econs S, which i was seeking to take leave from cos i was going to watch i la galigo.

however, i did do something after sch, which was to go out wif clara liangs and zhaoxxx. we went to walk arnd thinking we could catch big fish, which started at 3.30 and i'd be alarmingly late for i la galigo cos the big fish show is [drumroll pls] SURPRISINGLY TWO HOURS AND FIFTY MINUTES LONG! YES! FIVE ZERO! so crazy. i tot it was like 90 minutes. or at most 100. haha okie nvm. so we ate at pastamania which was like 30% OFF. cos im a student. so cheap. so i ate. n later some idiot dunno what to treat me so im hungry now. argh. okie nvm.

anyway the one seems to know that i have a immense crush on her, and i guess its no big secret to the general sch population either. ha. i think i shall end this crush! its so.. embarassing! a big, tough guy like me having a crush on a xiao mei mei?! (pun not intended[for those in the know only hahaha]) that's impossible!! so paiseh lah and like almost everyone knows and she knows and i know and ah!~!! haahah nvm lah, she's still cute! she got pinchy cheeks. like a baby's cheeks. hahaa. today she was wearing stc. so sian. dun have something new. haha. but nvm can pei he my blue and white also. ok i shud stop having a crush on her.
my crush ends
here <
or so i thought. nah just bullshitting everyone lah!

this is a long entry innit? well i warned u!

anyway i bought kazuo ishiguro's an artist of the floating world. i felt that it was nice after seeing it just now. it is nice up til the pages im reading until.

u know i always wonder how it'd like to be on stage, with the bright lights shining on u, and u bowing to yr audience, whilst they go wild with their ovations. that's the only reason why i applaud at performances. i feel that since the artistes work so hard, they earn their moment. and this is their moment. and i felt that if i were up there, i would want the same, so i clap. for their moment.

now my browser has screwed up and i sincerely hope i can post this later.

u know how life is so terribly transient. it changes like nobody's business. ytd i was at hougang. and i tot there was 132. i walked to the bus interchange. no more. i walked to the bus stop hoping there's 132. no bus interchange = no 132. stupid me. take cab? no money. so i went to draw. and i walked out to the main road again. and then by that time i had wasted 25 mins. and then as if to put the finishing touches on a terrible joke, there were 5 cabs, all in one straight line (i kid u not) with 3 behind them, ALL WITH THE RED BUSY SIGN ON. ha! cruel joke life is.

im starting to get a rush frm simple games. like the game i played just now. tell me something and i'll tell u something game. and its like u have to answer e qstn. haha. its like j`eux de enfants! so fun! i like to play these kinda games. ha! its the cheap thrills of life which makes life such great fun. and oh, such a roller coaster it can be.

ok i dunno wad else to say already cept that im quite hungry now. that's all for now. will update when i have something new to say. in the meantime, chill y`all, and
take care. the term's out. have fun!

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mervyn at 3/12/2004 05:29:00 PM

Thursday, March 11, 2004

really bored

hi ! feeling totally extremely bored at home! arrrrrrrghhhhh nothing to do. cos i didnt go to sch today. didnt feel like going to sch so slept at home. woke up at a terrible time of 3pm. terrible. here's a song that i just felt like listening to just now.

i cant sleep
everything i ever knew
is a lie
without you.............

i cant breathe
when my heart is broke in two
there's no beats
without you....

you're not gone but you're not here
is that the way it seems tonight
if we could try to end these wars
i know that we could make it right

how can i live
when everything that i adore
and everything i'm living for
girl it's in you

i can't dream
sleepless nights have got me bad
the only dream i ever had
is being with you....

i know that we could make it right
its gonna take a little time
let's not leave ourselves with no way out

sold out to commercialism haven't we? sometimes i wished i were in a boyband. then i think about the nonsense and the news in the tabloids. then i think i'd rather be a hermit. and now i'm listening to some eurothrash. so who's the one in my song? it is THE ONE. sources tell me that today she was dressed in something new. my god, was it a sight to behold. for my sources of course, whilst i was lost in my dreamland. i dunno of what. i'm betting bings is drooling over her too. anyway the rain is good, cos im cooped at home. if i were outside, see what hell the sky would be getting.
argh i feel like eating something nice. okie that's all for now. see u soon.


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mervyn at 3/11/2004 09:57:00 AM

Wednesday, March 10, 2004

a day when my world shattered

hi blog. today i went to sch only to be hit with terrible news in the morning. that THE ONE knows that i have a crush on her!! ahh i was so embarassed i felt like digging a hole and burying myself in it. oh man who was the one who told her i know not! ok maybe now she will coem talk to me and clarify things huh ahahahha...

anyway sch passed by today like a breeze. i couldnt really be bothered with the trivial things. i guess i've reached the stage where i attained nirvana. the ultimate stage of apathy. where i cant really be bothered with anything anymore. how cool right ahaha.. well so u know it was like that.. and i fell asleep in whitby's lessons again. this time was severe man.. dunno why i always fall asleep in his lessons when he's so interesting character. argh..

anyway i wanna bitch about CT chua. she sucks. today during civics she talked some bullshit which was apparently meant to inspire us. yah very inspiring. i was so inspired to go down to the canteen and eat breakfast or something. and den after that she had that personal consultation thing with me. which she already had with everyone. well u know normally everyone knows her personal consulation usually stretches 10 - 15 mins. mine was like 3 mins and i was done. cos all she wanted to say was harp on how i didnt hand in my lit assignment. that's like 3 months overdue. oh screw it its civics lah, dun mix ur subjects up. anyway she didnt directly say she was unhappy u know. she was like. how r u coping so far, r u trying to project a gd image to teachers? i've heard positive feedback and seeing u in class i know u r making a big improvement yada yada.. and then she asked. so what do u think u r doing to create a positive impression with me? and i was like. honestly, im not doing anything, and i can't do anything to change ur impression of me anyway. cos im myself and i wont be a hypocrite and stopp so low right. (i didnt say that to her) ok so then she was like, oh do u know u didnt hand up ur lit assignment. and she gave me that angry face of hers. LIKE I CARE? honestly, i can't be bothered. and the reason why i can't be bothered is cos of the way she makes it. if u just tell me that im late and that i should hand it up, the latest i'll give it to u is 1 weeks time. BUT I JUST DUN LIKE HOW SHE does tihngs. ok maybe diff. ppl have diff ways of doing things. maybe she's genuinely concerned abt me ( as many teachers have tried to imply) BUT I DUN THINK SO. or it doesnt seem to me so. and in this world, its all abt appearances. too bad. and she says she cares abt us. i dun doubt that. but maybe she's doing it wrongly. ok she is a very busy woman i know. ok then i'm sorry then. and its liek she's so sarcastic, yet trying to be nice. she was like do all councillors have duty evrery mornign? and i was like ya some only. so she said. are you one of them? im like no. she : then why werent u in line this monring? PPL HAVE A RIGHT TO BE LATE!! idiotic right? i JUST WASNT IN LINE FOR ONE DAY what and u be so sarcastic for what?!?!? stupid dumb bitch i think she's beginning to rank on my list of disliked teachers. which is abysmally small but still, she even ranks higher than sharon phua, for the simple fact that my dealings with sharon have been rather pleasant so far. unlike clara. but that's a diff. story.

anyway after school i had this completely hectic schedule. psc scholarship "discussion", pre u sem. then soccer.
of all this, i enjoyed the psc thing the most. it reeally motivated me to go study hard and get a psc scholarship. ok i think i'll aim for the OMS. dunno if its impossible to get, for me. ppl like to say nothing is impossible. but we all know how this is just the politcally correct answer. but nvm, aim for the sun and if u fall at least u r still in the stars. anyway their whole programme is like really all rounded and develops one fully. i think i'd enjoy it there. ok now i must mug hard. but stupid dorothy sure write my testimonial badly. but im sure all the other teachers are much kinder. so hopefully it will offset dorothy's.
pre u sem was a little uneventful.

soccer was spent on the field looking at someone... hahaha i was rather distracted. but still managed to put in an alright performance. i kinda dun like soccer now. i dunno where my passion lies. i need to find my passion! or else i will just be a lost sheep. actually i like econs. i like to think abt the economy. i like to read econs books. im a freak. i suck! ok i must not be like that. actually i like cycling. but its so dangerous. so i gave it up. damn. why dun i just risk my life and cycle everytime. haha but after a couple of falls i never dared to go about 30km/h, even downhill. so i have no passions. maybe making money is one of them, but we all know that money can't buy happiness. but happiness wont give u money either. i'd rather have money and be able to buy things which might make me happy. rather than be happy but poor. ok that's a paradoxical situation. how can u be happy and poor at the same time? its like trying to be a girl and a guy at the same time?

ah actually im so damn tired. i need a break. i need to run away from everything for awhile. lock myself in a little underground tunnel. and just leave me alone. maybe having THE ONE around would be fine. but all the rest just stay away. and then maybe i'll be happy. maybe i'll do a david blaine and spend a few days alone standing on a pole. or buried underground. ok. that's all i have to say. i wanna go lie on my bed now. good night everyone. sweet dreams and take care yea. goodbye.

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mervyn at 3/10/2004 03:52:00 PM

Tuesday, March 09, 2004

of a day when the world did a handstand.

hi blog. eating chin chow whilst watching guess3 now. the chinchow is quite bitter no sugar but nvm i think i like it that way. anyway i went to take my photo just now for the pre u sem thing.. looks abit funny but nvm..

went for soccer after sch.. really really boring.. but nvm anyway.. i think when things get competitive and stuff it kinda takes away ur passion for it. i dunno lah. im just an accidental theorist!

oh something damn cool happened today. during econs today, mr lee went thru the stuff and he drew this damn cool economic model. its like some macroeconomic machine that u can adjust and then the meters will turn. i thought that was damn cool lah.. i was so inspired to build a machine like that but as he was speaking and i was thinking abt it i found that i had inadequate knowledge to build a machine like that that the knobs would move by itself. so i guess it will only exist in my mind. maybe i can build one that i must manually adjust. but then it will lose its meaning already. ok nvm. i will build one next time when i am a rich millionaire with too much money to spend. instead of buying a big ferrari or a mercedes slk, i will hire an engineer to build the machine. and then maybe i will play with it for awhile and donate it to gilbert lee so he can play with it in class and show his class since the idea was his anyway. hahahaha but i thought it was really cool.

so recently the talk has been class politics and all. bings has it on his blog,(and its a very well written entry by the way u shud go read it.) liangs has one on his blog, i figure it wont be long before ek kiat picks up on the trend and rides the waves of dissent and writes something on it too. i think i'll abstain tho one might know how strongly i feel abt the issue. but i'd just say its like the mccarthy witchhunt - a whole load of hoo-ha over pretty much nothing, resulting in nothing.

anyway i think my leg's injured. have quite a busy day tmr. will go retire now. til then, everybody take care and see u all soon. good night and sweet drms one and all!!!!

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mervyn at 3/09/2004 04:13:00 PM

in school.

eh its such a slack day today. too many free periods for my own good. was that 3 or 2 hours freE? luckily, i managed to wake up my bloody ideas and read the age of the economist, a fine book for anybody to read. the only problem is its exhorbitant price to some (USD 55 excluding shipping) so perhaps anyone who wants to read it can borrow it from me at a price of 2 dollars a day?

anyway i ate quite alot in sch today. perhaps i shud start dieting. ok on second thoughts maybe not. anyway all tat free periods suck. its the inefficiencies in the timetabling. that's why we can only go home at such an ungodly hour. when i could have been home at 2. its raining now actually and its just a light drizzle to be frank, but i certainly hope it starts POURING then perhaps it would be better for everyone..

woke up late today got to sch late but its ok anyway. walked into the hall just as they started performing the national dream song. got a box of little niceties from someone who was very nice. hm the letter was an interesting read to a boring morning. exciting jumpstart like a rush of cold wind to the head. replied the letter within two hours. lit chua's lessons was alright save the fact that i didnt bring my donne(darn) book. pardon the pun there i just had to make it. hahaha

ok but all in all the day has basically been not a very exciting one. u know that yr lessons are getting much more personal and interesting when the bell goes and ppl are not rushing for lunch but staying in class and the teacher continues talking til 10 mins after the bell. i think that's the way classes shud be. not stuck to a certain schedule and talk as much as you want to. a perfect balance of our studies? no, how do we pursue personal interests that way? we can't. so perhaps we shud just go for our individual/group consultations and not have a timetable. no. that wont do. then i wont be consulting anyone due to my perceived intelligence and pride. so screw it.

methinks im living on a borrowed life. as if everyone else is living it for me. like what's so amazing, interesting with my life ? nothing much actually but ppl like to think it is. they think its an amazingly scandalous totally refreshing life which fills their otherwise dull and boring life with excitement just by making up stories about my life. ok maybe some of them stories are true but 99.99% aren't. but they're still interesting. and i'm the main character in them. pity i'm not finding these stories very interesting tho.

so mr dio said somethng rathe rinteresting abt our class and class politics. frankly, im not very bothered nor the least bit interested in it. cos i've come to the point and realisation that my world doesn't revolved arnd them. i'm earth and they're venus. we revolve arnd the same sun, but we have different orbits. and we dun bother each other. maybe their gravitational field can affect my orbit. but i guess that's a discussion for another time. for now i'll go watch some interesting magic videos. til next time, later. see u. =)

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mervyn at 3/09/2004 06:21:00 AM

Monday, March 08, 2004

endearment.

hi blogger. what's new today? anyway today is a stupid day cos it practically rained the whole bloody day.. til rochor road was flooded, everywhere was flooded 30 - 50 cm(according to the new) that's a litle crazy innit?!anyway the rain was very gloomy and darkened the whole day. came home at 3 something and went to sleep. had a headache, probably cos of the rain. i hate the rain. the rain dampens everyone's mood. ok but rain is essential cos its a regeneration of the water cycle and without water we'll all die.
so i'll give up my own selfish intentions of no rain for the greater good of mankind.

listening to paul van dyk's for an angel now. it's a nice song. duno wad element of it makes it nice. hahaa.. maybe its just the crazy trancey rhythm. i like the electro sounds of it tho. very soothing yet jumpy.

anyway i had a good day in school today. the only thing missing was the sunshine. but nvm i managed to inject a little bit of light into everyone's otherwise gloomy lives. hahaha or at least i would think i tried. haha.. but either way, sch is never fun, but i had so many free periods today. oh the cool thing that came fo the performance was quite funny... tho i didnt sense their passion. could feel that they were a little pissed off with our childish crowd. but frankly i tot it was quite childish how they kept giving below the belt suggestions. stuff like porn star, and all that nonsense... quite stupid. okie nvm..

i know no why im so pisseed off nowadays. cos i just cannot stand the fact that all these muggers who r in no sense more intelligent than me can get much better thru me thru sheer determination and hard work, because i m jealous that i cannot put in the hard work! mayhbe i shud start trying. and prove that the education system sucks. but i cannot change it, so i shudnt criticise it. i can only exploit the loopholes and work towards it. but i cannot stand those idiots who in lecture just blindly copy without understanding. actually i shudnt care abt these ppl. but i just feel that they're wasting their brain cells. and my time cos the teacher has to keep the stupid transparency there for them to copy things which are already in the notes.
how daft.

watching the shi zi lu kou now.. i also wanna go taiwan and eat the stuff there.. it looks very nice.. but i think its not that nice actually... but nvm i still wanna go there. i think every place is nice if u know where to go lah.

u know how ppl always worry abt their exams, i think there's no pt in worrying, tho its inevitable. like u cant change it. why dun u worry abt it before the exam and do something abt it so that u can dun worry. and then ur life will be so simple and easy to lead.

ok anyway today i saw The one like twice. back view only. but whilst i was singing the sch song today i looked down and saw her and ok i couldnt smile to myself but i continued singing. now whenever i sing the sch song it feels quite normal actually. like nothing wrong.. haahaha okie wadever. when will i know her huh?

so anyway pls come to my party, the first 50 women will have a free fragrance. not sure what yet. jugs at 15 all night. anyway the place is really big and nice. celebrity guest DJ playing rNb. so dun miss out on the bash of the term! school's out so get yr frens and celebrate! TWO FREE DRINKS 18/guys 15/girls. its a damn cheap price lah.. so remember to drop me a line at 91767768!!

ok think i'll end here i wanna go read the newspapers and the economist. ok goodnight one and all.. til next time i hope to see u soon. take care everyone and fight the rain and stay happy!!!

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mervyn at 3/08/2004 03:34:00 PM

Sunday, March 07, 2004

a sleepy tired day.

hey blog, finally im here, at the end of a day which flew by but all too fast. stared me in the face and fleed.

well this morning woke up at an unearthly hour of 12pm. normal sunday times, but factor in the fact that i slept at 5am. went to bedok with bra to meet toon to get the tickets from him... after tt came home and slept a little more. and that was about it. hahaha.

did my work. i feel so happy that i did my math tutorial til qstn 4. like a great sense of accomplishment, cos i dun usually do my math. but i laboured over this til my brain was in danger of growing a tumour from excessive thinking, but eventually i managed to do it! ms chua should be so proud!

anyway i was thinking, clubbing is really not my kind of thing. but i just go, la. i mean, i don't like the dark atmosphere, the loud noises, and all that nonsense.... the sleaze.. but ok i like the alcohol. but i can get alcohol at home. so clubbing is really not for me i guess. hahaha..... but still, oh wells.

nothing much for the day actually its a really sickeningly boring day. am going to pack my stuff now and go to bed. think i'll go for an image change in sch tmr. will do something to my hair. specs undecided. ha. okie

goodnight all. listening to un homme er une femme. literally, a man and a woman. nice french song. hahaa... okie goodnight sweet drms all. will catch all of u around sometime. better call me soon for ur tickets! these are hot property! hahaha okie see all of u arnd, hope u have a good week ahead! last week of sch, hang in there everyone.

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mervyn at 3/07/2004 04:14:00 PM

a pointless day

hihi it is sunday now. so yesterday i went out to induz3 with bra. it sucked... he was late..... but that's inconsequential..
inside, was all the army boys.. the aunties.. and all the old idiots.... no pretty girls....and the place sucks too..... the music sucks....everything sucks.... and i was groped by a horny girl that was so ugly i could die..... all in all, the experience sucks!!!!!!!!!!!
DUN WORRY....
MY PARTY WILL NOT BE LIKE THAT!!!
there will be no aunties, no old men, and all hunks and babes. and the best thing is, ITS AFFORDABLE!!!! for guys its only EIGHTEEN BUCKS! girls, FIFTEEN! where can u find such a good deal?!?! and somemore, its TWO DRINKS!!!!! TWO FREE DRINKS!!!! JUGS AT 15!!!! SO CHEAP!!! AFFORDABLE!!!! ANd the best thing of it, the place is damn big and spacious lah... its like... got places to chill.. the dance floor is big.. and all... everything u want in a club lah.. what more can you ask for?!?!! and the music is intensely popular with ppl... its RNB all night by a guest DJ!!!!! show off yr killer moves with the liquid beats on the dance floor. or chat up some babes and hunks at the lounge area. its for everyone. intense excitement and fun, heart pumping action.
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so see u there cos all the hunks and babes will be there!!!

after leaving induz3.. headed over to chinablack and check out the place lah.. that'a abt it.. stupid induz3.. only gave 1 free drink.. too sober to go and approach any girls.... screw....... hahahahahahaa..........that's all.. will be going out now...
see u all... enjoy this beautiful sunshiney sunday...

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mervyn at 3/07/2004 03:45:00 AM

Saturday, March 06, 2004

sun and moon

i'm not one to post lyrics but well, here's some stuff from an infatuated guy. nice songs. haha

Sun and Moon Lyrics

[KIM]
You are sunlight and I moon
Joined by the gods of fortune
Midnight and high noon
Sharing the sky
We have been blessed, you and I

[CHRIS]
You are here like a mystery
I'm from a world that's so different
From all that you are
How in the light of one night
Did we come so far?

[KIM]
Outside day starts to dawn

[CHRIS]
Your moon still floats on high

[KIM]
The birds awake

[CHRIS]
The stars shine too

[KIM]
My hands still shake

[CHRIS]
I reach for you

[BOTH]
And we meet in the sky!

[KIM]
You are sunlight and I moon
Joined here
Bright'ning the sky
With the flame
Of love

[BOTH]
Made of
Sunlight
Moonlight

[KIM]
Tomorrow will be the full moon
I can bring friends to bless our room
With paper unicorns and perfume
If you want me to

[CHRIS]
Unicorns? sure. . .

this guy's in love with you - sasha distel
from "a french affair"

You see this guy, this guy's in love with you.
Yes I'm in love, who looks at you the way I do.
When you smile, I can tell we know each other very well.
How can I show you, I'm glad I got to know you.
'Cause I've heard some talk, they say you thinkI'm fine.
Yes I'm in love, and what, I'd do, to make you mine.
Tell me now, is it so,
don't let me be the last to know.

My hands are shaking, don't let, my heart keep breaking,
'cause I need your love, I want your love. Say your in love,
In love, with this guy, if not I'll just die.

Da Da Da Da Da Da Da Da
Da Da Da Da

Tell me now, is it so, don't let me be, the last
To know.

My hands are shaking, don't let, my heart keep breaking,
'cause I need your love, I want your love. Say your in love,
In love, with this guy, if not I'll just die.
If not I'll just die.

Da Da Da Da Da
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mervyn at 3/06/2004 01:23:00 PM

a french affair.

hi, on a day of late mornings, i went to the university fair, which wasn't much of a fair. but i had an afFAIR. a french afFAir. it was a brilliant cd. im listening to it now. cost me a little hole in my already holey wallet, but still, it is a brilliant buy. its a very old school, romantic disc, which puts u in the mood for some love. pity i got none now. hahaahaa but i never had any in the first place. to me, love is a totally non-existent concept. at least at my age anyway.
anyway the music on the disc is like, its very old-world beauty kinda music. its like the kind of music one would play on a lazy sunday afternoon lazing on the patio with coffee in hand, and the image must be painted in sepia colours, its a very idealistic world. perhaps my world has been in too much of a turmoil recently so i need music to paint my world. yea i guess so. and the recording is done as such that it has noise. like a vinyl. so it makes u feel like u're listening to a vinyl disc on a gramophone. beautiful. absolutely beautiful. i'd burn it for everyone if not for my lack of burning equipment. its cos of all this stupid music that i have such an idealistic picture of a perfect love and therefore will never be contented. yes, im never contented with anything. but that's the very nature of man. adam smith said so himself. smith said : "a desire of bettering one's condition, a desire which, though generslly calm and dispassionate, comes with us from the womb, and never leaves us till we go to the grave." "there is scarce perhaps a single instant in which any man is so perfectly and completely satisfied with his situation, as to be without any wish of alteration or improvement of any kind." so you see, even smith asserted the idea. what more me.
it is precisely this that drives the whole economy. but enough of the economy, more about me. the economy can be discussed in the economist blog.

well, so perhaps this is just me. let me relate to u all a simple story. perhaps complex in presentation, but simple in plot.

life on the edge, is the dumps. that was the basic thought of the magician. he often escaped from burning buildings, escaped from handcuffs underwater, practically breaking his stare with death. but he could never, never. ever. break his stare with the audience. he was thrilled, enthralled, even drugged by the energy of his audience. he loved their fascination with him. he loved everything about the audience. but he never loved the audience. he only loved performing, he only loved to shock. his exhorbitant prices never kept the audience away. and so he performed, to the ends of the earth he went. but never did he stop performing the same old, escape routine. it was the routine for which he was reknowned for, the routine for which he never grew sick of. one day, he got tired of performing. he felt that that fascination, that complete obsession with him, it was sickening. there was no private moment for him. he could escape from boxes, cans, handcuffs, straitjackets, but he could never ever escape from the eyes of the audience. everywhere he went, ppl would ask him to perform. so he got sick. he was tired with performing. he didnt wanna have anything to do with his audience anymore. he wanted to live his own life. he wanted to do the greatest escape ever. to escape from the magic. to escape from the deception and misdirection of it all. to escape his audience.
he tried. he struggled. he picked every lock possible. he tried every trick in his hat. but he could never accomplish it. the shackles were still on his feet. the dragging chains made a terrible noise everywhere he walked with it. critics all over the world were writing terrible reviews from this magician they once adored. the fickle crowd were restless. they accepted not the fact that this magician, as skilled as he was, was turning his back on them. pity they knew not that he was sick of the magic. he was sick of the audience. for he never loved magic. he never loved the audience. all he loved was the attention. the complete, omnipotent attention. and even that could make one sick. and he was. but too much of his life was in the public eye. and he had never thought of that day when he would have to perform the greatest misdirection of all.
the audience longed for him. the critics criticised him, yet hoping that he would be back to entertain. he had become so much of their lives. they missed trying to figure out how he managed to escape from a box as tiny as that. they missed the hold which he had on them. but he missed none of that. he had nothing to miss. he longed for a life in the audience. the audience begged him for one last farewell show. he would have none of that. for he knew that the more he performed, the more he'd be discontent. and so he didnt. and so he ended his performing career.

and now he lives his life as a penniless sitar player. for it is that which warms his heart. and it is that which he loves.

beautiful story, which i dun understand a single part of, altho it came from me. ask me what it means and i would tell u frankly i know nothing of it.

going to induz3 later with bra. dunno for what also. wasting my life away. but i liek to waste my life. hahahaa... anyway i'll end here lah nothing much to say also. told a really long story which shud entertain all of u.

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mervyn at 3/06/2004 11:41:00 AM

Friday, March 05, 2004

anywhere, it may be. let me go with you.

hihi blog. its really late. and im still watching tv, besides, its a friday. And even the most hardworking of students (ME ME ME) needs a break on fridays. don't they? yes i see heads nodding away thanks alot.

so today, was a really ok day, as u would have known from my earlier post. one thing i need to comment about is brother's increasing stupidity!!! hahaa he's trying to be a comedian but turning out as a clown. he's picked up some cool sense of humour of some sorts on the streets apparently. ahahha ... yesterday... during dio's lect.
me : "brother why u never bring ur book"
brother : (points at me) "why u bring ur book?!"
like DUH?!?! WHY I BRING MY BOOK? AHHAHAA

and today he had some assorted soundbites which were really really funny and crappy and totally out of point. oh yah. during math tutorial.
brothe :" eh where's yiling ah yiling never come today ah?"
me : (points at yiling) "there!!"!
brother : (continues looking around) "where??"
hahaha he's fast turning into a clown. and he kept harping on me exposing his clown-ness to lit chua. hahaha how funny....hehehehee

i wanna get 4As next yr i dun wan to be the one crying cos i didnt get all As... i will work hard. i will work hard. i will work hard.

oh econs S was rather interesting at least gilbird lee had something new to tell us.. and his communism and smith thing was quite cool... maybe i shud be the charismatic communist leader to lead the world into a new utopia. but i dun like communism tho. i prefer private ownership. i only like state ownership when i am the state. hahaha... his stupid smith and marx fighting thing was also damn funny. hahahaha the idea of it is hilarious.

saw nj and tp playing as i was going home. sad. but its ok. relaly boring.

[warning : THE ONE rants coming up]
oh i saw the one numerous times today. she was like all around the place lah and there was this once.. she walked SOOOO close to me i was so stunned... she looks so divine from every angle back front side all.. aiya dun say already i feel so idiotic. like whole life talk abt her but never do anything. but she's really power lah.
[the one rants end]

ah i think i wanna go practise my magic tricks more then i can go perform for children's magic show. and then get paid for it. ha. doing 3 things i like all at once. not a bad deal. must practise more. okie. i like to entertain kids. haha. ok lah dun say i pian xiao hai ok.

okie i think this is where i end. goodnight everyone.. sweet drms all... and er yah tts all..... see all of u soon....

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mervyn at 3/05/2004 04:13:00 PM

a minute in the library heard the pin drop

hi, im in the library now waiting for S paper to start after playing a little soccer. ended lessons at 3 today and thought i could go home but turns out gilbert lee faked me when he replied my sms. so there's s paper after all. but nvm at least its interesting. hope there're some new stories now. haha...

oh this morning some one was really nice, shant mention who, but thanks alot. she's been rather nice the past few days. hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm that's very unusual haha.

really bored. today was a day when the a levels were released. so i had many free periods. so that kinda sucked cos i dun like free periods cos i normally have nothing to do. yes u could argue that i could find something to do on my own but i don't. so i'm lazy. i hope i'll do well.

wanna go out to play. but i'll work hard. think ill go for the university talk tmr. anyone wanna go? ah feel really bored now. dunno wad to say really. those who know me shud know ive been really frustrated by some things recently. and i've been getting quite a bit of flak from some ppl, who dont really know the full details. well. we are all a little too quick to judge, and let the one who is not guilty cast the first stone. ok? but still i believe that ppl out there will talk, and say stuff. but let them come and say stuff. cos i don't give a damn. tho sometimes it gets on my nerves and makes me in a more murderous mood but still. ok nvm. let's talk abt it in an anology. maybe a poem. we'll see.

i shall entitle this the leaves. a page from yiling. hahaha. okie. yiling the poet pls dun leave any unfavourable comments u'll hurt my tender feelings. besides, u must understand i wrote this in less than10 minutes k.


Leaves

The leaves
fell from the tree.
they thought they were free.
autumn has come and brought with it the winter
the cold, sharp winter has pierced the air with the icy stupor.

winter is like that.
its cold;
what do you expect.
daddy
the girl crying over the leaves.
accept it,
mother nature's
work doesn't grief.
the tree says not that the leaves should stick
but grows new ones

the winter passed with amazing speed
flew; fled; floated away
the spring came
the tree
had new
leaves.

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mervyn at 3/05/2004 08:41:00 AM

Thursday, March 04, 2004

if only for a day

hey blog. so what's up? anyway its late and i guess im going to sleep soon. spent the whole evening doing pretty much nothing actually just watching tv. just finihsed reading my money and prices notes. ok not really just half. and annotated lit chua's donne poems. waste of time. lit chua sucks. she wants to monopolise 2 days of our march hols. its not our fault that she's such a lousy teacher and teaches so slowly right? she comes into class every week and wastes our time. cos she is crap. she is not succinct. she thinks she is miss sunshine! but she is not!!!! she is just a xiao li chang dao. (hiding daggers in the smile)

ok just now i watched the trista and ryan's wedding. it was really sweet and lll.. but i guess my wedding wont be like that. tho i would like it to be liek that also. ok lah actually i dun mind if i'm getting married to THE ONE to have my wedding liek that. but i would have to have lots and lots and lots of money. which i will have. just not when im getting married. hahaha. maybe i can go and be a rebel now and overthrow the government and get married in the istana? ok i'm talking cock as usual.

watched fear factor and gotcha too.. the fear factor winner's boobs were HUGE!!! HUMONGOUS. can't believe anyone can have such huge ones naturally. but it appared natural. gotcha was damn funny la i was laughing my head off at the gag they played on taxi drivers.. the one where they pretended to load a dead body in.. damn funny..... hahahaahah......

actually ive nothing much to say.. oh ya got some stuff after sch jst now.. spent a bit of money.. but ok at least i feel happy. pamper myself once in awhile is good. but its not relaly pamper. its just a hobby that i have. and SOME ONE indulged in SOME ONE'S hobby and told me that SOME ONE bathed for duno how long.. wasting lots of water... no wonder we have to use NEwater now. and its all cos of SOME ONE. hahaa ok that's quite crap. dunno wad i said that for maybe as some filler text for this bloggy.

oh ya there's the eDB talk which i signed up for. dunno whether there's econs s tmr. shud i go that one or econs s. hm interesting thought of the day. maybe gilbird lee will be too happy (or too sad depdning how u look at it) after the A levels tmr and go out to celebrate so no Econs S. probable right. ok lah see how first lah i'll let fate decide for me. i'll let fate bring the one to me. hahaha.... tho everyday im praying and burning joss sticks.... but still.. i believe that fate is favourable and will bring the one to me... hehehee...... ok i shud stop talking so much nosnense... but she's really chio wat. den SOME ONE try to break my heart and tell me that THE ONE is attached. ha! i dun believe u!

ok that's all lah. nothing much too. okie think ill end here for the day. hope all a levels ppl will do well. and nj will be tops. and nobody will look down on nj anymore. altho im getting quite irritated with some ppl who are muggers. really really downright muggers. i cannot accept the fact that all these ppl who are muggers have this kind of outlook on life. and i cannot believe that they mug til they get better grades than me. i dun wan to slack liao. i wan to mug also! hmf. okie goodbye and goodnight one and all. sweet drms.

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mervyn at 3/04/2004 03:43:00 PM

a day of fun and games in school

hi, so im currently sitting in bytz churning out this entry. actually today is a really ok day so far, the day went by without much hitches, save for me turning on the attitude when math chua walked into the class. i gave her that dulan face of mine for the whole lesson. ok it wasnt easy but too bad for her hahaha i wanted to show her how it is when u are not angry but purposely come and be angry with the class. the new econs lecturer is very... i duno. refreshing. hahaha her voice is really deep and monotonous so quite sian actually.
oh ya and this interesting thought came to my head whilst i was in the toilet. for those who don't understand unemployment, pls read this section. basically. unemployment is like a toilet urinal.. if the inflow into the labour market is greater than the outflow.. there is unemployment.. similarly.. the toilet urinal right.. if the inflow is greater than the outflow, due to the hole being too small to flow out.. (as i encountered today) then there is "unemployment" or in toilet terms, it is choked... so i hope that this has illustrated the problem of unemployment to the clueless ppl... and this unemployment can actually lead to employment... cos den u will have to employ some bangalas to come and repair the urinal... and also, the water that flushes the urinal is like foreign talent.. inflow from another source that will help the economy (the urinal) and when it mixes with the locals (from you know where) the labour force will be one that is mixed and very talented due to the contributions from local and foreign, which will leave the urinal (economy) very clean (short term growth) until the next person comes to use it and injects some labour into the labour market... and the people in the economy (or rather using it) will be left feeling satisfied, and their indifference curve would be the highest that it can be..

anyway nothing much to say really, econs lee came into class and showed us the pinky and the brain toy, which was remarkably cute may i add. so my dear fans, pls buy that for me, tho i dunno where to get it. hahaha but he said he's offering it to the top econs student of our class. so i have a 1/13 chance of getting it. perhaps we shud be marxist and split it equally. hahaha... actually its not 1/13 (ek kiat told me that its 1/14 cos 14 ppl in our class take econs. so ok, 1/14. and cos of this, im not gonna pass maths, or so he says.) cos u have to factor in lots of odds, like how skilled is ppl in econs, how well they can write their essays, how hard they study, etcetc. anyway i am going to get that toy i dun care... hahahahaah no lah i just talking cock... later my commontest get AFFFF hahahaha ...


ok since im in here doing nothing but surfing magic videos, let me tell u the story of how my economist blog started. one day i was in bytz slacking away doing nothing, and then i went to read the economist. and i discovered that hey there were some really interesting articles in there that were premium content. which means u have to be a subscriber. but no.. sometimes these articles are really cool.. so ok i decided to post it on a blog. but i couldnt post it on my blog right cos ppl who read it will say im spamming the blog and it gets kinda messy. so i put it in a special blog. haha. but i was bored and had too much time also la. but its quite an interesting read. reading stuff in blog format also makes it easier to digest. like instead of eating steak, you eat beef cubes. which are much easier to eat, but essentially its the same beef. hahaa wad crap. kk think i'll continue later on at home. going home early today.

ya. i wanna go home early. den later see my mood maybe i'll go fetch joelle from sch. which is just opposite my house. like a 1 minute walk hahaha okie see ya later. bye guys. im feeleing really happy and in a good mood today. hahaha okie see u

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mervyn at 3/04/2004 06:16:00 AM

Wednesday, March 03, 2004

disintegration for the last day.

hi, so im here at a ungodly hour, doing my pre-sleep routine, writing down the day's events and thoughts into this journal of sorts which helps me keep my sanity.

anyway today, was a terrible day for me in school. i had to sprint to assembly, i had to do this and that, and the whole day was a draggy one. wednesdays always suck for they start off with civics. and stupid ms chua had to ask us all to go to the lt5 talk. what for???? if u wan us to go den just say, u dun have to make it sound so flowery and all " oh all of u shud go its ur chance to get heard blablabla.." i just dun like the manner in which she is so fake trying to get us to do things.... argh...... ok let me bitch abt the math chua too. so yesterday whilst she was in pms mood she was asking the class a qstn and obviously, coming form the class, nobody answered. so i tried my best to answer and i thought that was the right answer so i just tried and said it out.. and den she gave me that look tt it was wrong and den i say oh nono its just nonsense..... so then she say.. AM I ASKING FOR NONSENSE NOW? fuck lah like im just trying and u cant blame me if my maths is lousy right? at least im trying.. why don't u scold the rest of the class for knowing how to do but keeping quiet? dumb bitch hope she doesnt pms tmr or i will be forced to stuff my calculator into her mouth and storm out of the class.

in sch, i was stoned. it sucked. i didnt talk to much ppl and spent most of my time eating my ice cream.

after sch, had the pre u sem thing.. but only after waiting for 1 hour plus... but ok it was quite interesting.. then got to go down to turf city to see the boys team run.. ok not bad met anthony there.. and got to talk cock... wif him and sho off the ONE to him but he scold me say my taste is fucking bad. like real lah.. she better than linzy.... hahaha but then who cares lah he's gay lah!!! too bad bra was not there or else got more cock.. i went off from there after awhile. didnt like the noise and the crowd. and so i just went home whilst they were presenting prizes. like cheering will help them to receive the prize better la? its all pride issues. duh. ok to a certain extent (small) cheering would help an athelete's performance, but come on la he receive prize also wanna cheer..... how cock.. but nvm i was damn sian there also.. den just go home lor.. went home and saw joelle at home.. that troublemaker.. stick post its all over my study table.. and dunno write wad crap there.. hahaha..

anyway i think that if u wanna make money, u will have no frens. its a trade off between money and friends. and i mean those kind of real friends not the liek ur moeny friends. cos the act of making money is mercenary. but i guess if u have money u will have friends. but i dun wan those kind of friends. fell asleep on the bus. lucky i woke up at my stop. or i will cry..

actually everything that happens, there's two options. 1. be happy. 2. be sad. i happen to choose option 1 ninety percent of the time... so maybe that's why i dun seem to be sad. even tho maybe i could be deceiving myself but nvm... as long as u deceive urself for a long time, it will become a real thing soon.. think wanna ask my dad to book sultan shoal during june after the pre u sem.. wanna go there and relax and fishing.. hahaha... catch big baracuda this time..... ahhaahhaa.. anyone wanna go just sms me la.. but tts in june but just tell me first.....

i think i wanna be a cook next time. but i said this before already. ok so nevermind. i wont say it. i think i wanna go and invest in some foreign currency. but i dun have enough money. i think this i think that. aiya. sian. oh yah today i saw THE ONE numerous times. i felt so excited and happy. okie forget it. oh ya, and thanks to SOME ONE for the letter huh.. it was quite pleasant and sweet really.. was rather surprised haha but ok lah.. im a jaded soul. it takes a huge thing to surprise me. maybe one day u have 10 clowns hiding outside my door i just might be surprised. heheheeehe..... my liquidity preference at this point of time is very low. hope it will increase soon. maybe ask the central bank (mummy and daddy) to increase the money supply and create some credit. ask them to lower interest rate also. haahhaa.... im seriously talking cock siah. actually i have alot of money in my drawers as angpao..
but its been my custom ever since i was in sec 1 or sec 2 to dun open angpaos... so i wont break this custom.. cos its good luck................ hahaha okie i think i will end here..

ok good night everyone..... take care.. sweeet drreams......

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mervyn at 3/03/2004 04:01:00 PM

Tuesday, March 02, 2004

a day of dreams

hi blog, im here again after doing my work of the day and reading my pre u sem notes. the pre u sem notes were extremely dry and boring but informative so fine.
im still waiting for the email from the forum so that i can gain access to it. apparently the moderator sucks and is extremely lazy and refuses to see my application. ok i got the email hahaha. it was in my junk mail folder. oh chey its not. ok enough about my emails so childish.

anyway, i can see that my frens have all commented in their blogs abt the saga of the day, miss chua and her scolding us. ok i feel that the fact that she came into class with the intention to scold us was wrong. its as if she scold us for the fun of scolding us when actually her anger has already subsided. altho i understand that she is probably disappointed with our class. i guess she has to find new ways of making us try harder cos what she did probably backfired on her. but of cos, we must understand that she is a woman. and all women are like that. unpredictable. that's why im gay. also, i guess her expectations of us were too high. she was saying tt we shud look to pass every math exam, not expect to fail but yet get A's in the a levels. so why set the paper so hard to the point of us failing? why not set it to the standard that WE can pass, not to the point where you THINK WE can pass. i mean, there're f math ppl around so obviously if u put ur benchmark with them, us arts students arent really going to benefit right. u must understand that arts ppl dun really interact with math alot, as compared to last time in sec sch where i constantly used math in all the sciences.. so i got to practise.. ok but enough about that, miss chua just watch and see my common test...... i will not let you down.... and i will not let myself down.... and i will not let anyone down......

as is probably widely known, today is a day where all my dreams were fulfilled. as mr lee told me, a free agent is better cos free agent can go and train with many clubs but eventually has to sign with a club.. but mr lee.. free agent train with club got no pay.. he didnt consider that.. there is only a small allowance.. it is only when u sign with the club that u will get big bonuses and performance bonus.. hahahahaaha some ppl might understand what im talking abt, but the main point that they must realise that although i am no david beckham, not a star player, but i have marketing power! i am able to offer the X factor to the club!!! ok lah whatever..

anyway recorded some more tricks just now.. haha very fun. i think im going to quit sch soon and go join the circus. i'd make a good circus clown i think. actually i'd like to perform part time as some entertainer at kid's birthday parties. i like kids. i like to play with them and have them all come to u and ask u "korkorkorkor how u do that?!?!" and they will be so surprised and so shocked and keep coming to u and they r just very cute... hahahaa..... so my wife next time better like kids.. ok but the one looks very motherly (maybe im biased) so fine. hahahaha i think im a little crazy already... perhaps i shud go talk to her soon. yes but ive said that millions of times but havent got around to doing it.. eh but u all also dun geh kiang help me ok.. i appreciate ur good efforts but i shy one leh......

anyway i got tricked just now tt there was stuff in my letterbox but both times i went there was only a flyer hahaha so better have something there soon huh... i just realised that i have lotsa stuff to read. so i better read them soon. i think that's all for today. no insight or commentary on anythng at this point of time. goodnight one and all.. see u soon. in the meantime, take care everyone.

do come for the bash. call me now!

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mervyn at 3/02/2004 04:05:00 PM

of headaches, frustration, stupor

hi, im gonna sleep soon but i have some things to say so better put all my thoughts down before i go to bed and get them lost in dreamland. anyway today was a really tiring day in sch cos i was pretty tired and someone didn't scan my card thanks to the circumstances of things, i felt as if i shouldn't have gone to school.
i was really sleepy.

on a day where my horoscope read :
Maybe you're not overjoyed about how things worked out. There's nothing you can do about it now. If the past continues to haunt you, the only ways to change it are through rewriting your memories or blocking them out altogether. Shifting your focus would help a lot, too. Stop looking backward all the time. Turn your gaze to the future. Starting now, this is where you can make a difference. Let your previously learned lessons guide you without forcing your hand. Circumstances will be different every time. Respond to the current conditions and make something completely new.

yes. that's my horoscope for march 2. anyway, on a day like this, i was utterly shocked to be woken up by an sms from yinshan,(whom i initially thought was some pretty girl cos i didnt recognise the number) an sms from wendy, and a letter from bitch, i was uttterly shocked. trust me, i was. and oh abby sent me an sms on the way home cos she saw me at the bus stop. oh shocks of all shocks horrors of all horrors how much more accurate can my horoscope get? anyway it says this is where i can make a difference. and so i shall. THE ONE is waiting for me to make a difference. hahahahaah.. but anyway i read the letter in math, spent most of the day smsing various ppl, but oh wells. [note to myself : call brian later] ok i wanted to start bitching but decided against it. realised that its not good for my health. ok but wendy and yinshan were rather pleasant tho, so that's nice to know at least. maybe life doesnt suck that badly afterall. oh ya and yinshan's HI!!! good morning!! hahaha" or sometihng along that lines was a rather pleasant start considering my mum's alarm clock which was extremely irritating, and how i had to wake her up millions of times before she got up... and how i woke up feeling rather irritated and with a massive headache and not wanting to go to sch. and waiting for a sms from some ppl telling me that my card wont be scanned today. and me refusing to send a msg to not scan my card, not knowing that my card was already lost in the hands of someone else. what a bitch.

also had a little brief chat with gilbert lee after econs, and he told me abt stuff.. that was quite interesting.. mark lo.. was in an un-pms mood today, very sunshine and gay. (that rhymes) ms chua.. well was in pms mood today, to antithetically juxtapose markie boy, cos she was unhappy with our math test. and she had to pick on me even tho im in a bad mood. argh. argh.

oh i have a lame qstn for everyone.
what is the most frustrating chapter in math?


answer : complex functions
because u always have to use arg(f(x)) [argh get it?]


ok so i took the bus home with belinda just now, it was quite enjoyable, thanks belinda for listening (or at least pretending to) to my incessant cussing and endless bitching. hahahahaa... and i finally discovered why singapore's economy still cant match with japan or hong kong.. and the answer comes from our dear old friend (whom year 1s should be very familiar with) who is none other than.. the boring, quiet, adam smith.
"Every system which endeavors... to draw towards a particular species of industry a greater share of the capital of the society than what would naturally go to it ... retards, instead of accelerating, the progress of the society towards real wealth and greatness."
hmmm... that's an interesting thought.

ok i guess i m going to sleep for awhile now, inactivity kills and im seeking to die.

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mervyn at 3/02/2004 09:14:00 AM